I am loved well. There are days when I feel God is withholding and cruel. I have been struggling with this on and off for a few years. Even in the midst of the some of the best years of my life, I can still feel like He is keeping himself from me; Staying far away on purpose. Just saying it makes me feel like a Brat. In the truest sense God has been merciful and generous with me. He has been abundant with me. Everything in my life speaks to that.
Yet my heart cries the opposite.
And so lately I realized that the way that David loves me is slowly proving my heart to be a liar. David, my dear husband, loves me well. His love teases me into rethinking my thoughts about God. David is sweet and patient, he is moved by my heart, my feelings, my emotions. David wants to be with me where I am, he wants to sit next to me, he wants to hold my hand.
His love has helped me to know the God who has loved me well my whole life.
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September 25, 2008 at 3:01 pm
Jenn
I think early on when the romance was beginning, there was a subtle transformation that we noticed in your countenance, your lightness of heart, your ability to “let things go.” It became apparent that being loved well by David was slowly changing you into somebody more herself, more in touch with how much she brings blessing to the world around her. We love that you are well loved, Kristen! And not only by David….. we think you are very special, too. : )
February 5, 2009 at 2:48 am
justice27
I just have to say how excited I am I FOUND your blog, and am for sure adding you to my famous blog roll on my blog page. Your funny, amazing and full of wisdom
………April